对不起，我爱你 ;

Embrace me for th last time & wisper into my ear, telling me that you love me.

I'm so sorry for th dead blog . Dead blog for days . Or maybe even a week . Hmm , for these days that i havent been updating my blog , alot of things happened . Most of them are bad stuffs . I lost my boyf . Th only reason i knew about why he left me was that he's " flower heart " . Translate that directly to chinese . Cause i cant think of any english word for that chinese word . I once again apologise for that . I have been feeling rather moody nowadays . Mood swing i guess . It seriously sucks like totally . Anyway, back to th flower heart thing . Thats what he told me himself . He told me its not that he has feelings for other girls or whatever . I guess what he meant was his feelings for me just fade somehow . Maybe its like puppy love or something . Someone actually told me that he keeps changing girlf on facebook . Well , maybe that explains to th flower heart thingy . & maybe we got together on impluse . Like too fast . I think maybe its just a crush . I dont know ? Well , at least i've moved on . I still thought that i wont be spending my christmas alone this year . But i was wrong . Hahas i'm spending it alone once again . LOL forget it (;

I went to NEX today with Andrew , Brandon , & Brandon's girlf . Went there to catch a movie. Mission Impossible . Its a pretty nice show . More to action kind of movie . With alot of fighting & stuffs . Not bad (; Worth watching . Hahas . I also went to NEX to wait for Kai to end his work . So that i can get my wallet from him . I left my wallet in his working bag a few days ago . Joshua was at NEX too . He was meeting Kai . LOL Belvin & his friends was also at Nex . Including Belvin , there was 6 people with him . LOL So many friends at Nex today . Awesome ? Like a boss ^-^ Hahas . Went home together with Andrew . Went home , feeling a little tired & moody . Showered , now blogging . Its already 4:36am . LOL Its time for me to head to my laddaland .

Sotplug ! Go to sleep now , tomorrow will be another brand new day . Stop thinking so much . Everything is going to be fine . As per normal . You should know what you're suppose to do , stupid girl . You know its not right to go on like this . I know its hard , but you have to do it . Because it does everyone good . Just wakeup , do what you're supposed to do , get over it , & freaking move on . Its not like you've never done this before . Its not like you've never gotten your heart damaged like this before . If you can do it once , you can do it twice . If its yours , it will be yours. You cant force something like this . Just let nature take its course & everything will turn out fine . Now close your eyes , empty your mind , go to your god damn laddaland .

I blame disney for making me grow up, believing that everything has a happy ending.