When you walk away, i count th steps that you take. Do you see how much i need you right now?When you're gone, th pieces of my broken heart are missing you.
I didnt sleep for th entire night yesterday until now . Cause i have to wake my boyf up at 8:50am . But to my surprise , he actually woke up himself before i even called him to wake him up . LOL I guess what he said was right . He could wake up early because he turn in early for bed at night . Laughs . & i didnt sleep also because, my poor fishy havent been eating anything for quite a few days ler . Lately i just sleep in th morning & wake up in th evening . Th fish shop doesnt open that early , & by th time i woke up , it's already closed . So i totally got no chance to buy a bag of $1 small fish for my fishy to feed on . So finally , i get to buy small fishy in th afternoon . After that, i went home , shower , prepared to go out to meet Kennard & also some of his friends at Jurong Point . It have been so long ever since i went there th last time .
Had a quarrel with boyf too . His training time have passed , yet no calls or any messages from him . I decided to make th initiative to call him first then . & to hell with dota ! He was playing that god damn dota . Tsk . I got so worked up & i was fuming . He clearly knows that i seriously hate him for playing dota . Because everytime he play dota , he sleeps late , or it was just that he simply forgotton about me . He told me that after his training , he would text me . But this is a surprise for me . He even went back home after training , showered , & everything he needs to do , then head straight over to that freaking lan shop . DOTA ! DOTA ! & DOTA ! I still remember him telling me that he would cut down on dota after we're both together . Please dont make me believe that this saying is true . " A man would say & do whatever it takes to get you , & everything dont mean anything anymore after they got you . " ? Maybe i'm partly in th wrong too . I spoke to him in a very harsh manner . I spoke to him that way , because he keeps wanting to hang up my call , & continue with his dota . I threw tantrum on him . Then he told me that he's gonna stop playing now & accompany me . But i know he did it because he didnt want me to get mad at him . He didnt want to stop playing , i know , i felt that one . He didnt do it willingly . & it wont mean anything if he didnt do it willingly , then i told him to continue with his god damn game . He somehow threw his temper on me . " Hannah " *Kup* Tsk ! I lost control of myself when he reacted this way . Way out of control . No idea why is it like this either . So mad & angry that i punched whatever i could punch . Tsk . Th whole atmosphere is ruined . Moments later, i send him a really long text . Telling him how i really am feeling . What i want , & what i dont want . He did apologise . Somehow , we're good once again . Well, all i can say is , i think i'm at fault too . (:
There's dance practice tomorrow morning . & i have my dragon dance training tomorrow night . LOL What a tirng night . While i was on th way home just now , i received a call from mummy asking me if i can get her a Filet O'Fish meal before i come home . Sort of doze off in th MRT . Lucky i'm half concious when i reached Redhill MRT Station . If not i wouldnt know where i would have been by th time i wake up . TROLOLOL . I guess i'm really tired now . As i'm typing all these, my eye lids felt heavy . Like they're going to close anytime . But i still have to shower first before i can go to bed . I really need to go to bed early tonight . I'm dead tired . Nights readers .
Th words i need to hear, will always help me get through th day, & make it okay.
I've never felt this way before. Everything i do, reminds me of you.
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