Faking a smile ? Its really easy . I'm good at that . (:
I've tried my best , to not cause him any stress for th past few days . Trying to not cause any disturbance to him because i know he really wants to do well for his exams . I still do leave him a morning text every morning . But he doesnt reply to any of them . Its okay . I can still take it (: He didnt reply to any of them probably because he really doesnt like to text . Today , i was scrolling through twitter . & i came to realise that he's quarreling with one of his brother over some small misunderstanding . I really dont bear to see him raging & getting mad . I was thinking if there's anything that i could do to make him happier . & iaybe its a mistake for me to do something about it . I left a text message for his brother . Telling him to give in because there's really no point in quarreling with your brother over small issue . Its not worth it . After sometime , they are starting to clear things up . I felt happy . Th feeling of achieving something . But soon after that , i recieved a call from him . My heart was beating like mad fast . I dont know what's th reason . I answered his call . He asked me if i told his brother anything . I said yes i did . I told him what i told his brother because i dont want to lie to him . I'm afraid that if i told him a lie , he might find out th truth & th outcome will get worse . After telling him , he was like " Orh okay " . I could almost sense that there's something wrong. He seems angry . I kept thinking ... Was he mad at me for everything ? I saw him ranting on twitter soon after we hung up our call . I felt sad . I dont know was it because of something that i've done wrong or whatever . At that point of time , i felt that i'm on th verge of losing him already . He used to tell me this a few days back " Its too early to say that " . Could it be that i'm thinking too much again ? I thought i was still doing fine recently . Always staying positive & not being paranoid . But what have gotten into me now D: When he's here with me , everything seems perfect . Everything seems to be fine . He'll never know th reasons to all th things that i'm doing . Regardless of making him happier or whatever . Its all for him .
Its okay , Isabel . You're a strong girl . You know that better than anyone else . Now , stay strong & stay positive . You know clearly that guys doesnt like girls to be paranoid all th time . If you really love him , let him go . If he comes back to you , he's always yours . If he doesnt , he was never meant to be yours . What is yours , will eventually be yours . Time is th key . Thats what he said isnt it ? (: Yepp , time is th key to everything between you & him . Just go with th flow & everything will turn out fine . Furthermore , there's nothing you can do if he's not meant to be yours . You cant force love . You can only hope that he'll understand everything you've done for him . He's silly if he lets go of you . Its time that you should go & take a shower now . Go right to bed after that . Stop thinking so much yeah ? Clear your mind . He needs space . Remember ? (: Goodnights.
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