我忘了想念一个人的感觉是这么样, 直到我遇见了他.
原来想念一个人却又看不到他是那么辛苦的.
但他却一点也不知道我的感受.
真的真的好难过, 好辛苦
I havent been going home for 5 days . I only got home since yesterday night . I was sleeping in my troupe all th way . & i'm also down with fever for one day . Fever cum flu cum headache cum sorethroat . So i ate two panadols & my fever is gone . But i'm still left with flu & sore throat . Th worst thing is that my sore throat turned into cough . Weird thing is i didnt eat any bak kwa or whatever . This is really really terrible . As for th flu , its sticky mucus :( I think i'm just getting heaty because of th fucked up weather during lion dance . Sometimes th sun is so hot , sometimes it rains too . I even poop green shit . Really getting heaty already . Gotta drink more water .
Anyway i might head out tonight to enjoy myself . I havent been chilling with my friends ever since new year started . So its time to relax & enjoy th night with a few friends . I guess i also need to destress myself . Sometimes i just hate myself for being so paranoid & sensitive . Hate myself for always feeling so insecure . I do think about how did i became how i am today . & i think th answer i get is because i used to get toyed by guys a few years ago & i had difficulties trusting guys ever since . My feelings was toyed , i was lied to , they broke my trust . So that might be why i'm so paranoid , so sensitive , so insecure . I guess i just need this special someone to reassure me when i get insecure . I also hate it when i keep having doubts in him . So afraid that i'd get played again . After i keep getting played a few years ago , i turned nasty & i dont treat guys that good anymore . I dont see th point in treating them so good when all they give me back in return was pain & hurt.
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