Its 2013 now , humans !
Another year have passed again in a blink of an eye . Each & every one of us grew older by a year. & i'm aware that i havent been updating this blog . Th reason is because both of my VAIOS laptop somehow died on me . Th Pink VAIOS i had , had some problems with th keyboard . Th letter " W " screwed up & i cant blog at all . Then th Black VAIOS i had was way too slow . Like really really slow that i gave up on it . So i didnt have a new laptop for months & i survived it . My mum had a Acer laptop herself & so her laptop kinda screwed up too . Her letter " M ", " Spacebar ", " Left Arrow " is not working . So therefore , i had no chance to blog . Now , i'm using a White Toshiba laptop given by my parents . Its not new but i've requested for a laptop as my birthday present because my birthday is around th corner . & i guess my dad is a little tight on th financial . So he told me he had this White Toshiba & if i want it , i could have it . Well , its way better than nothing at all isnt it . So why not ? But this Toshiba laptop is really fast . Its little slow at th start up but fast after that . Its actually my first time using this brand . I have been using VAIOS for years as my first laptop is th PinkVAIOS . I'm having a little problem with this Toshiba's keyboard . I dont know if its th keyboard's problem or th protecter on top of th keyboard . Its a rubber-like protecter . I dont know if th rubber is making me using alot of strength to press on th keys or what . Its really tiring my fingers out . LOL I'm like hesitating if i should remove th protecter or something . If i were to remove th protecter , th keyboard might get dirty or even yellowish as time goes by because its white .
Anyway , i'm currently not studying when everyone else is sleeping early in th night & waking up early in th morning . HAHA I'm not studying now because previously i went to this ITE website & appealed for courses . Th first time when i appealed , i chosed 4 .
1) Office
2) Digital Animation
3) Retail
4) Floristry
When th result of my choices came out after a few days & it said that th course i chosed was full & it didnt mention which course was full . But i assume that th Office course was full . Then i appealed again . This time , only one course . Retail . I was shortlisted for interview . So i made a trip down to AMK ITE for th interview & i failed it . My friends told me i failed th interview probably because of my hair colour . So for th third time i appealed , i would be in April Intake . I suppose that th Office course will not be full in April Intake . I chosed th Office course & th result will only come out on 8/02/13 . Wish me luck !
I dont get why it have been raining so heavily these few days . It was raining heavily for th whole of yesterday . & yet today , it started raining around 4pm in th late afternoon . Such a mood spoiler . But lucky th rain is getting smaller already . I'm gonna head out like later on . Its a drinking session today . But my friend asked me out in th weekends to drink again . Oh gosh . As i'm only 17 this year , i'm still underage . My friend asked me to look for a legal aged IC . I doubt i will be able to find it by this coming weekend .
Last night i was in such a foul mood because i had this guy & he chased me for 1 year 3 months . But in this 1 year 3 months , we had alot of quarrels . Th weird thing about th both of us is that we quarrel every single time when we talk . He stays far away from me . I'm at th greenline & he's at th purple line . To be more exact , i was always th one who go over to his area to meet him . He only came to look for me for about 2 times . He is always th one who says he want to take a look at me . He's also th one who says that he's tired of waiting for me . So lets put it this way , he's tired of waiting for me but i'm tired of waiting for him to say th right words to me . Whenever we talk , all he do was to kill all th conversation . I cant always be th one to start a new conversation with you after you killed it isnt it ? You dont even bring me out . You dont even take th initiative to come over & find me . This is really sickening . I'm telling you that i'm tired . Do you call this chasing th girl you love ? Waiting is not everything you know ? You dont just sit there & wait for her to come to you if you want her . You got to make some effort . Sighs , i guess you're too young to understand & know what to do . I've moving on without you .
When a girl is used to getting hurt , she wont know how it feels when a man starts to appreciate her .
So she ends up pushing him away .
4 comments:
Then have you ever considered how he feels? It takes a lot of courage for someone to chase after the person he/she likes for so long. 1 YEAR AND 3 MONTHS, this only shows how serious he is about you and how much you mean to him. Maybe if you showed any indication that you wanted him in your life, you'd have accepted him instead of playing with him and leading him on for so long. Toying with other's feelings is not cool.
I can see that he is serious in me but please also understand that i'm in a difficult position too. He is not th only guy chasing me for so long. & you really think that by not making any effort could get you what you want? Really? & yes i wanted him. But he's not showing me what i wanted. Therefore, after so long, i finally decided to move on. I kept waiting for him to show me what i wanted. But he couldnt do it. So who are you to judge me & say that i'm toying with his feelings? Would you shed tears for someone you're toying with? No, so just keep it to yourself.
Okay, maybe I should rephrase my words a little. You didn't 'toy' with him, but you shouldn't have led him on either. I'm sure you know he has Twitter, so surely you can see how beatup iover himself he is? Did you, you know, TRY to give him a chance? Instead of waiting for him to give you what you wanted, and since you also did want him like what you said, why not be the one to take the first step first? Pardon me if I come across as kaypoh, but I'm saying this only because I really think it's worth it for you two to give 'Us' a shot.
I have my on way to handle my stuffs. Why offer a chance when he didnt do what a guy would usually do. I know myself th best & i know that just by offering a chance for th both of us like this will only result to breaking up. So why wanna do th extra thing & make him feel hurt again. You're not me, you're not him. You wont fully understand how it feels to be in our shoes. So why not i ask you how well do you know me? How well do you know what i'm going through myself? I'm so strssed up to th entend that i cried for all these that happened to me. He said he's tired of waiting. But i'm tired of also waiting for him to say th right things. Also tell me why would i waste my time waiting for him when i still have so many other choices waiting for me. Do you think that i'm not waiting too? Do you think that i enjoy hurting people? I cant even teach him what are th things to say & do when you're trying to chase a girl. I can only wait for him to realise everything. So i'm just gonna leave everything to fate. & i also hope that you can stay out of our affair as it is none of your business. Peace
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