对不起，我爱你 ;

" What is love? "

I was chatting with Yiqing Roosevelt on facebook this afternoon, coming to evening. She added me on facebook & i accepted. & there she comes saying Hi . & th first question she asked me was " You love --- ah? " So i thought, no harm telling her that i love him. I replied " Yeah, obvious issit? " There she goes, bombing me with lots of questions. & i asked her, was she his girlf or ex girlf or best friend. She replied me with BestFriend. I believed her. If she was really his close friend, she should know alot about him. Be it personality or character. I asked her does she think that he'd love me too. Thats when she asked me alot of stuffs. She asked me if he said that love me before or did he show me any ♥. She asked me if we ever talked on th phone. She asked me if i ever went out with him before. She asked me how long have i known him. She asked me if we were texting each other daily. I didnt know by replying these questions would bring trouble to him. Because, i thought they were just close friends.

When i went for training at around 8pm. --- sms-ed me. Telling me that he woke up already. I was so elated. By showing my concern for him, i asked him if he've eaten & stuffs. Suddenly he asked me. What did i tell Yiqing. I was so stunned. I told him nothing much. Just some casual talk. She ask me questions & i replied her. & what he replied me next really makes me feel sad. He said i just got him into deep shit. I tried asking him what i said wrongly, what i did wrong, what happened. All he told me was only she misunderstood him. I was feeling so bad that my mood went down. Totally so moody. I didnt know where i did wrong. He didnt want to reply to my messages anymore.

Went home after training. Feeling so so shag. First thing when i come online in facebook was to stalk him. Hoping that he's fine. Then went to Yiqing's profile. I found her blog link over there. Looking at all her posts, i spotted my name in one of her latest post. Thats when i came to know that, she was once his girl . Her last sentence in that post was,

" She's cute, like how his previous girl are.
And this girl replace the girl in his heart. & their stories will goes on. & Lastly... This cute little girl, doesnt know. I'm actually that girl once in his heartt.... "

So i believe she left him a text when he was sleeping. I have no idea what she send. Probably something like asking him to last long with me. Because when we were chatting in facebook, she kept repeating this last long thing. Asking me to takecare of him. So maybe thats how things took place. I guess he's really angry with me now. I loved him. But there's nothing i can do anymore. Sighs, shag ttvfm.

" If you & her were just purely close friends,

why would you get so affected by her conversation with me? "