Crying is th best way for a girl to express herself for words that cannot .I went to bed quite late yesterday night . Woke up at 7:30am for school . Vanessa & Eugenia didnt come to school today . Both of them are having fever . So there's only me & Clara . Had quite a boring day at school today . After school , rushed back home to change clothes & head for work . I actually brought my home clothes to school . But th thing i forgot to bring , is my slippers . So in th end i had to make another trip back home to get th slippers . While preparing , Sihao called me & asked if i'm going to work . So yeah , we decided to go to work together since he stay near my area . After that we cabbed over to Orchard Forum . Went office , get th roses . I took 30 roses today . Thinking that i can sell them all off today . But i was wrong . LOL Its monday today & not much people are going to shopping at orchard . & th weather is sooo mad hot . There were a few guys telling me that they will only buy th rose from me if i were to give them my number . Well , i did give them my number . But i had no interest in them luh . LOLS . Anway somehow , i still managed to finish 20 roses . After i finish th 20 roses , i rushed back to office , get my pay , went to aljunied to look for boyf , jessie , damien , shawn , noble , jun xian , francan , johnny . Sorry if i missed out anyone .
Sort of had a quarrel with boyf because of th giving out phone number thing . Cause boyf was sitting beside me . Then one of th guy actually text me . I was replying this guy infront of my boyf . Th thing is , i told all of them i'm attached . But boyf is angry . I dont know th reason . But he's angry . I cried . All i ever know is to keep crying when things aint right . & th only person who can stop that crying is not doing anything to stop it all . It hurts so much . I just kept crying & crying . I dont know where i did wrong . Or maybe i was wrong to give my number . But do you know my reason of doing this ? You know why i didnt even bother to explain myself further ? Because i know you will not believe me even if its th truth i'm telling . Its okay its okay, i'm fine . I can surely get through this . But i felt so hurt to be called ' Cheap ' by your friends when i'm just trying to find any possible ways to earn more money to support my family . Most importantly , my grandmother . She's th one who tries to dig out money even a few cents for my allowance when she herself does not even have enough money to spend . What i just want to do for her now is to earn as much money as i can , give her money when she doesnt have any . I didnt do anything that lets you down . I didnt flirt , i didnt two time you . Maybe you wont be able to understand my position now . Because you're not me & you're not going through what i'm going through . I admit i'm at fault too . For giving out my number . I'm not selling my number for $20 . Are you just feeling jealous ? Rest assure baby , i'm all with you . Sighs .
Anyway , there's school tomorrow, readers ! Yet i'm still not sleeping . After school , i'll be going to work again . My family is counting on me . I got to work hard . If th weather aint that hot , maybe i still got form to chiong sales . But still , i will try to chiong my sales tomorrow . I guess i'll just get 25 roses tomorrow . I'm done here . I just need some sleep , to stop all these heart sinking feeling in my chest . Baby , just remember , i'm doing this for my family , for my grandmother . She needs me . You know i love you . Goodnights ...
Sometimes, i'm just so tired . So tired of crying . I just cant control my emotions . I'm sorry .
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