Happy First Month Anniversary (:Until now , its still pretty hard to forget him . I cant seem to move on . Its okay . One sided love ? :D Anyway , i went to cineleisure today with lots of people . I'll try to mention all th names that i could remember okay . Lynn , Karen , Bryan , Edwin , Jeremy , Eric , Ice . Saw alot of people i know there too . Taigong , Dawson , Michelle , JMAN Leader , & some group of lion dancers who seem to know me . Went to play pool , then ate at this kopitiam opposite cineleisure . Before going to kopitiam , i actually wanted to take a train to his house . To give him that small surprise for our first month . But one of his brother told me something which causes me to breakdown & stuffs . So in th end i didnt go to his house . I'll elaborate more later . So after eating at kopitiam , we watched movies . I watched two movies in total today . First was this movie , Journey 2 th dont know what thing luh . Second is Dance Dance Dragon . Both are quite nice show . After that cabbed home . Its 4:06am right now . & i still have lion dance in th morning later . I guess i'm not sleeping again D: I have to reach my troupe at 8am . LOL Anyway , i said i'll elaborate more about th surprise for don right . Here it is .
I plan to reach his house before 12am . & i'll put th box of hearts i folded outside his house . Then i'll send him a very long text at 12am sharp . Well , it may not be a big deal . But i dont know what else could i do anymore . I'm afraid that he'll reject th box . I'm afraid that he'll ignore it . I'm afraid that he would throw it away :O . I want to share with you guys about th text i wanted to send him . Sorry if its mushy .
" Hey silly , today is supposed to be our one month anniversary . But i didnt expect that we broke up when its going to be one month . If we didnt break , by now i should already be in your house celebrating it with you . But its okay . I know i've made alot of mistakes & made you sad , jealous , disappointed , & angry . You must know that i didnt do it all on purpose . Which idiot would make their love one angry . Right ? & i left something outside your house . Please dont ignore or throw it away . I hope you can think it through regarding our relationship . I know we have brought alot of hurt to each other . All those tears we shed for each other . But anyway , i'm sure that there are also times when we had lots of fun & laughter together . Dont you miss those times ? I really want to be th best girlf you ever had . I tried . I failed . I'm willing to learn how to be a good girlf . I want to grow old with you . I want to die lying in your arms . I want to go through everything together with you . Taking care of you when you're sick . Being there for you when you're down . I want you to know that you're not alone . I'm still here for you . I still love you . Now & always . I know you're hurting too . I know you cried . Its okay to cry here . We all cry . You can cry infront of me . Its okay . It really is . I'll stand by you , like a pillar supporting you when you're breaking down . Please continue to let me help you massage your back as always . I love you don . "
Thats all . I know what he wants now . He just needs a break . Its okay . I'll give him time . I wont pressure him . I wont annoy him . I wont pester him anymore . But i wont be moving on without him . I just cant do it (;
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