Kill me please (:
Maybe i was foolish to believe that everything we had between us was real. Th holding of hands, those hugs & kisses. Those times when we would catch ourselves looking at each other, & th winks. Pinching my cheeks. Listing yourself as my boyf. Sending me home late at night. Telling her that i'm your girlf. I thought i've finally found someone whom i love, loves me back. But it seems like i was wrong. All th while, you didnt even have feelings for me. You didnt let me know because you knew that it would hurt me. But have you ever thought that by letting me know now, is a little too late? It hurt me even more. You told me we could still stay as friends, you said i could still call you up, you'll still be there for me. I'm sorry, i'm afraid i cant do it. I'm afraid i cant control my emotions. I'm afraid i cant control th feelings i had for you. You said maybe th key is time. Let nature take its course. I told you i aint gonna move on. Because you'll never have th idea of how much i feel for you. But i dont know how long can i hang on. Dont you now see that all i want is you? You remember this? " BluBlu~ " :'( I never expect that is would be my ending. Way to go, you left me hanging there. I lost you, i lost my heart, & now i lost myself.
What hurts th most, was being so close, & having so much to say, & watching you walk away.
& never knowing, what could have been, & not seeing that loving you is what i was trying to do.
Its hard to deal with th pain of losing you.
& now, i have this crazy mindset. Th mindset of doing something crazy. I have no idea of what was i going to do. Its just something crazy. I have this feeling. I just cant afford to lose someone, who completes me. There's no any other words that i could think of to express my emotion now. This time, i lost my soul...
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